Tim's Journal or How I learned to stop worrying and love the bomb

A Momentary Lapse of Reason

Fri, 29 Feb 2008 18:35:40 GMT

Depending on how this works out I may use this site a lot in some capacity, but we shall have to see won't we?

A recent trend in American High Schools:

Tue, 16 Dec 2003 01:28:06 GMT

Maybe it is just my imagination but I think there is a growing fad in our high school, (particularly females but males are prone to do it as well) it is that of self inflicted depression. People do not have the confidence or self respect that many of us are born with. The cause varies for everyone but some common ones are: troubles with the opposite sex (or same depending on your preference) trouble with parents or family, death of a close friend or relative, fighting with close friends or relatives. These are the sparks that cause the powder keg of depression to explode in a non-violent rage of sadness and self-pity.

Whether or not this is common "teenage angst" or "raging hormones" I do not know. I do know however I seem to be unaffected by this particular social disease and I try to help others but sometimes I am overwhelmed by the sheer number of victims. It is almost an epidemic the way it spreads. The "winter blues" are not helping my crusade either, I find myself more drained than I usually am which prompts people to ask me "What's wrong?" which I find ironic because I am the person who asks them that in order to help them solve their own problems.

Is it possible for one man to change the world? Will I vanquish my foe or will it defeat me, leaving me fatigued and useless to everyone around me? I do not have the answers at this time.

Bravo Pauly, Bravo...

Sun, 07 Dec 2003 20:50:11 GMT

How many emo kids does it take to screw in a light bulb?

Zero they just sit in the dark and cry.

(I doubt he was the first person to tell me that but he was definitely the most recent so I decided I should share it with those who have not heard it)

Ivan 2 The Sequel (not being made EVER!)

Fri, 05 Dec 2003 03:09:56 GMT

SwimH2OPolo426: i dunno it sucks but maybe this guy will be what we need to really get us going
TheDarkKnightJr: I need a tall Bulgarian to get me going

I thought that was kind of funny out of context because it seems like the most random thing I could say to "get me going" I was actually talking about Ivan the Terrible and how he is not coming back to Polo this year.
(According to Boudart)

A recently deleted comment

Wed, 03 Dec 2003 01:55:04 GMT

"what is this business>>?
first off, its not wednesday. fix your clock. 2nd, no i dont know whats going on in your life, and by no choice of mine. i have called you, to no avail. so are you trying to tell me something? do it upfront. and third... isnt that whole idea something darwin thought of? hmm...
brit."

1)I live in my own world and if you try to change it I will fuck your world up.
2)Not everything is about you honey. I wrote that post primarily because I did not hang out with Thor, Shorty or Whiteboy because it was MY choice.
3) Yes Darwin did come up with the theory of evolution. I just took it a step further.

That's my reply. React as you wish, be angry, be happy, cry, laugh I really do not care anymore.

The Fall of Man

Tue, 02 Dec 2003 20:43:21 GMT

To attempt to update you people on what has been going on in my life is fruitless.

If you do not know what I have been up to lately it is because you have not been with me lately and that is a choice you or I have made and it will stay that way until one of us chooses to change it.

Right now I'm thinking we should not help out people with disease and those who are poverty stricken because they, like modern medicine are only inhibiting the evolution of mankind. So in order to benefit the species the strong must survive and the weak must die off in order to create a race of super humans that will one day rule all those who are inferior. It would be similar to THE TIME MACHINE with the Eloys and the Morlocks.

What attributes will survive and which ones will mean certain doom for the individuals who posses them?
I do not have the answers at this time.

Mon, 24 Nov 2003 04:08:16 GMT

"Man is by nature a social animal... Anyone who is unable to live a common life or who is so self-sufficient that he has no need to do so is no member of society, which means that he is either a beast of a god"

-Aristotle

So am I a beast of a god? You decide.

Me

Thu, 20 Nov 2003 04:54:10 GMT

I noticed lately that I am always wanting to learn more about people but I never share who I am with anyone. But that is your loss. There was one person who I used to talk to but she's having fun at school right now so I am not going to bother her. So open up I'm coming inside, whether you like it or not.

"I know I was supposed to change the world and all"

Wed, 19 Nov 2003 03:19:48 GMT

I was supposed to write a post about how I have yet to figure out who I am and what my purpose in life with and I was going to throw in what I have already decided that I am not but then I wrote a paper for CAT and that threw off my thought process on that particular subject.
CDs:
Smashing Pumpkins ALL
Coheed and Cambria: Both
Pearl Jam: Lost Dogs, Riot Acts
Sage: Hope
Brand New: 1st album
Movies:
Train Spotting
Spy Game
About 10,000 more that I can't think of right now

Word on the street is that The Wheeling kids who wanted to kick my ass last year are back for more. They know Steve Sustman and someone (I think it was WB) told me that Mikey told Steve to call him next time he is hanging out with me. Too bad Mikey doesn't realize I fuck world's up. He has no idea what kind of trouble he is getting himself into.

Do you know how awesome you guys are?

Sun, 16 Nov 2003 22:59:51 GMT

This Awesome!
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Los Banditos vs. TT

Wed, 12 Nov 2003 21:35:45 GMT

Now I know everyone is fired up about the subject and I will address all of you in turn.
Firstly TT, every member of TT is a biter of JP who bit off of us. JP was their leader (Banditos have no leader, everyone is the leader and are free to offer up suggestions) and without him you guys are less than nothing (because you were nothing to start with)
Let's look at the facts:
When did TT start? During school of our Junior year.
When did the Banditos start? The beginning of summer after our sophomore year.
So my question to TT is how can the Banditos "bite" off TT if they were around before TT?
And I answer my own question by saying it is impossible, the only logical explanation is that TT bit off of los Banditos.

Now Dan Lee, you ask how white kids and mexican gang names work? Well thats the joke, we are the mexican band "Los Banditos" because we are a bunch of white kids from Suburbia. If you don't like it don't worry, the Purification will come soon enough.

As for Whiteboy, I think you are right but the Banditos will not have a Winter Reunion Tour.

Tyler, always eager for a fight, this time he happened to be fighting the good fight and he wins. Period. End of discussion.

All you little kids in TT can crawl back into the social cliques you came from and live out your high school career in those. If you want to start TT up again, or the No Mikes, WE WILL TAKE YOU TO WAR. And we will prevail. (just like with this little fight we are having)

Attention Former Banditos!

Wed, 12 Nov 2003 03:10:58 GMT

Attention Former Banditos:

I just bought the Sage Francis cd that we used to listen to and it reminded me of all our adventures a few summers ago.
Think about that summer for a few minutes, for me.
Then try to tell me at least one smile didn't come across your face. I dare you.

Quizilla Quizes

Sun, 09 Nov 2003 06:01:42 GMT

Ok so after taking about 15 quizzes I realized that I hate them. There were 2 that were awesome and then 13 that I knew which answer would yield which outcome. It takes all the joy out of the quiz when you know what answers are for which "answer" Therefore I am boycotting them unless people can find me some good ones that are not easy to predict.

Random synapses firing at a speed faster than they should be

Thu, 06 Nov 2003 04:21:13 GMT

So I am thinking and not really wanting to right now. It's late but I took a nap so I"m wide awake and I'm in a "thinking mood" I am seeing and hearing things that trigger memories and then I start thinking about those and deciphering them and all that jazz. And then some random shite will just pop in there. I need some heroine so at least I would have an excuse for my randomness.

Symbols in movies

Tue, 04 Nov 2003 04:44:24 GMT

So I have been wondering. They have symbols in movies. Like the Sixth Sense uses the color red to symbolize when something has been affected by a ghost. So I've been thinking "What if there are symbols in real life like their are in movies."

I thought I'd just throw that out there.

Pulp Fiction Quiz

Tue, 04 Nov 2003 04:26:00 GMT

1. Elvis or Beatles?
Elvis

2. Brady Bunch or Patridge Family?
Brady Bunch

3. On Rich Man Poor Man, Peter Strausse or Nick Nolte?
Nick Nolte

4. Bewitched or Jeanie?
Jeanie

5. In Archie Betty or Veronica?
The blonde one

6. Have you ever fantasized about being beaten up by a girl?
Nope

Come on, you know you want to.

Sat, 25 Oct 2003 05:24:08 GMT

Bring on the love...

The Wall

Wed, 22 Oct 2003 02:18:32 GMT

Just so you guys know. In case you forgot. I fucking rock! Who said we needed a month to do that paper? Not this Tomcat! I destroyed it! I grabbed it by it's big fat head and said "LISTEN MAN! I'M NOT GOING TO JAIL FOR YOU OR ANYBODY!" Then I proceeded to beat it worse then the 3 dudes in office space beat the copy machine.

my weekend recapped

Mon, 20 Oct 2003 02:27:20 GMT

Saturday I played LaCrosse and was told that I'm good and that made me feel good. I came home and was undressing to shower up (easy ladies) and my mom comes in there and I don't have a shirt on and she starts inspecting me for bruises and shit. She wasn't even sneaky about it. I lauged very hard. So then I said I was gonna play LaCrosse instead of Polo and she said "Oh no you didn't!" and I said "Mmhmm" So we'll see about that one. It reminds me of what happened last year with Gymnastics and Water Polo. Except my feelings towards the Polo team has changed.

After all the cleaning up jazz 4 came and got me and we went to Burger King which I haven't been to since the last time I was there, which was a long time ago. Then we got Pockets and went thrifting. I got a "Vietnam Veteran's Wife" t-shirt which I need to wash and then I'll wear it to school.

Then I went to Wendy's with Mickie and we saw a bunch of people and I was bouncing off the fucking walls. I had oodle's of energy and I wasn't afraid to show it. Nobody should ever be afraid of me I am harmless. But Phil Schmitz was because he's silly.

After 2+ hours at Wendy's Mickie, Whiteboy and I went to SalBro's friend's house Meghan and they had beer so I did them a favor by making it disappear. THEY HAD A WHEELCHAIR! So I was in that the whole night. Then I came home and went to bed.

What a long day. But it was a hella good time.

Sunday I worked, the always lovely Vikki came and visited me with her family, plus Gina. Mikey and I watched 4 movies, which is unheard of in the Valet's hole in the wall. Then I went to the store with my Mommy, then to "training" for my other job, which was pointless because I am super awesome at that job and don't need training so my "boss" sent me home super early. I went to Thor's and did out Chem lab and now I'm here. I made a valiant effort to text message Vikki but my phone sucks really big...

last post

Sat, 18 Oct 2003 19:13:12 GMT

Sorry but nobody wins the prize. The song was from the debut album of my emo band MODEST LEMUR, with their smash hit "I would give you thirty clouds just to listen to you smile again."
In stores now.

In other news I played LaCrosse today and it was a hella good time. I want to play this spring but as of right now my mommy won't let me. She's scared I'll get hurt even though I'd prolly hurt more people than get hurt myself. Time will tell.

if you get this you own

Thu, 16 Oct 2003 03:31:31 GMT

Here I am
Feet back on solid ground

I'm ready to fall again
I found a reason to
I closed my eyes

I lean forward
I feel the air start to ruch past
But before I get to far down

A friend catches me
A friend keeps me
From making the same mistake twice

I should be thanking him
I should be grateful
But I'm not

I wanted to fall again
I wanted the air to rush past me
I didn't want to climb out ever again

The climb is the worst part
The climb is what nearly killed me
The first time,

The last time,
The only time

WHITEBOY'S TEST

Tue, 14 Oct 2003 01:47:46 GMT

1. pancakes or waffle's?
pancakes

2.crepes or french toast?
french toast

3.ham or turkey?
turkey legs

4.bacon or sausage?
bacon

5.hot dog or bratwurst?
Dags

6.cereal or oatmeal?
depends on the cereal, temperature, barametric pressure and whether or not it is a leap year.

7.omelet or fried eggs?
eggs are ewey

8.pepsi or coke?
coke

9.apple or orange juice?
apple juice

10.bananas or apples?
apples (just finished one)

11.edy's or deans?
Chocolate

12.good morning america or the today show?
my bed

13.elimidate or dismissed?
elimidate

14.pbs or pax?
pbs

15.nbc or abc?
nbc (conan o'brien)

16.fox or cbs?
fox

17.upn or wgn?
wgn

18.guitar or vocals?
vocals

19.ibm or mac?
ibm

20.british or irish?
IRISH

21.metal or hardcore?
hardcore

22.ninja or pirate?
NINJA!

23.whiteboy or ba?
Homer

24.whiteboy or benny?
Wally

25.this test or just writing about your day in your journal?
this test

26. Katie or Jamie
Jamie (I loathe Katie)

Kate

Sat, 11 Oct 2003 23:27:58 GMT

I can't believe that Kate did that to me yesterday. I thought we were friends but after yesterday's actions I am starting to rethink our relationship. I'm dumbfounded. AND THEN she has the audacity to tell me to call her this weekend. I couldn't believe that. Eff her. See if I ever help her out again. Psshhh.

Fri, 10 Oct 2003 02:25:39 GMT

So Leslie almost killed me a yesterday. It was pretty friggin' funny. I'm bringing the word "friggin'" back so keep you friggin' eyes open for it.
So I'm looking forward to starting to email that bum again. It'll be a good excuse to keep my site(s) ambiguous and a bit funnier.
Kate is too friggin good for us lately so frig her. Yeah you heard me!
Jamie friggin rocks, but she's sad about her hockey team so I think I'm going to join it. It would be like a bad 80's comedy about a man trying to be a women on a women's hockey team.
Speaking of 80's comedies (even though it was more 90's) Full House is back on the air. It's on Nick at Night.
JJ comes home this weekend.
Mars Volta show at the Riv on Tues but I have no ride.

just a simple weekend recap

Tue, 07 Oct 2003 01:29:34 GMT

I haven't done one of these in awhile but I felt it was necessary for me to get everything written so I can keep it straight in me head.

Friday-Went to the football game at which we got destroyed. I saw a bunch of my friends that are at different schools so it wasn't all bad. (i.e. Jeanie, Ralphie, James Gambill, Heather, Jenna, etc.)
So I ditched the game when it was 44-0 and went to Andrew Cardella's house. There I watched the rest of the cubs game and then played pool with Lex and Prorok. It was a pretty rockin' night.

Saturday-Took my little brothers to dinner at wendy's cuz we are a classy family like that. Then we went and saw THE RUNDOWN with The Rock and Walken. Walken was awesome as usual.
(I need to buy Poolhall Junkies)
Went to visit Whiteboy at work, David and Shorts were there so we chilled, ditched Shorts, came back and left as one big happy family. Crashed homecoming, drove some cute girls home and then went to the Little Houes on the Praire where I was subject to conversations that I had very little interest in. Then I drove around for a while, picked up my brother from his Homecoming "party" and went home.

Sunday- Went to Jamie's hockey game in Winnetka w/ Mickie. It was pretty awesome. She got in a fight. She is much better at hockey than I am. I saw Kate which was rockin' cuz I never see her ouside of Lunch and Gym. I also saw John but he's not quite as cute as Kate and Jamie so it wasn't quite as exciting. Then we went to some girls house for literally 4 seconds. Then went to blockbuster and called it a night.

Monday- Went golfing with my pops and my little brother. I played pretty well but that isn't saying much. I did score better than my dad on one hole and that rocks because he used to be a pro.
Hung out with Naki and Cupe (Chup) for a few hours after I got home. It was fun but I was tired from earlier and therefore was not very talkative.

Mickie- Norm MacDonald's other movie is called SCREWED and it has Dave Chapelle and Danny Devito in it.

Kate- I have a story to tell you and I think it's pretty funny.

Jamie- If your games weren't in bumble I'd go more often but they are in bumble.

Dave- Please cut back on smelling me, once or twice is enough, anything after that is creepy

Les- Hey remember when you used to talk to me? I know you had kind of a rough week but c'mon what's more important than talking to me? It's not like you were dying or anything.

Shorty- You are not a "new-age hipster" no matter what anyone says. But you are cute and I want to shrink you down and put you in my pocket so I can carry you around with me.

Whiteboy- I'm disappointed in your lack of getting me a Walken action figure. Gimme my money back, plus $10 for getting my hopes up.

Thor- I talked to you last night and you didn't say anything bad. I am going to get #1 everyday this week. You just wait and see.

MJD- Sorry for interrupting your movie on Sunday. I hope it didn't ruin your weekend.

SOMEONE CALLED ME AT 3 AM LAST NIGHT AND I DON'T KNOW WHO IT IS, IF IT WAS YOUR PLEASE TELL ME.